Mortality

Yesterday evening was interesting.

I got a little glimpse of my mortality.

I have really never been sick. 

Once I almost died after having a C-section in 1999.

I hemorraged.

Don't worry though.

I lived.

However, yesterday afternoon I didn't feel quite right.

I googled my symptoms.

Never do that.

Anyway, I thought I had a heart attack.

I didn't.

But I did find out that I am severely anemic and have a pretty significant heart murmur.

Red blood cell count is supposed to be between 12.9-16.

Mine was 7.9.

Which explains a whole lot of why I have been so tired for a long time.

Anyway, now I have three different doctors they are wanting me to see.

Specialists and such.

I'll be fine, but it did make me pause for a second and think of what it would be like to not be here anymore.

I always imagined I would outlive a lot of my loved ones, if not most of them.

That will probably still happen.

Now I just need to take a little better care of myself.